Last day of 2025

Morning:

Woke up and went back to sleep.  When I got up again I started washing clothes.  Went back to take a nap.

(Morning: water, bread)

Afternoon:

Showered and had lunch. Did more laundry and played Madden. Got ready to go to NYE dinner.

(Afternoon: coke water, McDouble, fries, chicken nuggets)

Nighttime:

We got to Fogo De Chago and met my familym we had a very good dinner. Lots of meat and good time. Drove home to watch the Stanger Things finale. Now preparing for midnight to say goodbye to 2025 one hello to 2026.

(Nighttime: water, coke, rum and coke, meat, meat and more meat)

not feeling well (12/30/25)

Morning:

Woke up and had some coffee. Showered and we were off to grab some items to make lunch

(Morning: coffee, water)

Afternoon:

Had lunch and took a nap. Woke up and started a little clean up.

(Afternoon: Shrimp Fettucine Alfredo, coke, water)

Nighttime:

Finished watching F1, watched some episodes of Psych with Javi and did some accounting. Now going to bed.

(Nighttime: cereal, water)

End of the fantasy season

Morning:

Woke up and swapped locations to sleep with my wife. Woke up around 11 and went to make breakfast. Had breakfast and cleaned up a bit. Showered and chilled.

(Morning: ham, egg and cheese sandwich,  coffee, water)

Afternoon:

Went out to grab lunch, came home. Went to the park and came.back to put away the inflatables. Got home to rest and watch RAW.

(Afternoon: water. Waterloo)

Nighttime:

Had dinner, washed dishes,  took out trash and compost. Watching Psych with Javi. Cleaned up and going to bed at some point. The fantasy football season ended and I ended up in 3rd place. 

(Nighttime: water, waterloo, clam chowder, ham, based potatoes, fried rice)

Gathering and SNF

Morning:

Woke up and showered. Went to Target to grab some items we needed. Came home to help with the last items before we left to Amilcar and Olga's house for the Gathering 

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon:

Got to Daly City and we had fun, Arnel, Priscilla,  Allix and Kingston were these too

 We ate, opened gifts and came home to watch the Niners and Bears SNF.

(Afternoon: mimosas, water, cake, food)

Nighttime :

It didnt start well.for the Niners. But they ended up wining. Now watching Psych with Javi.

(Nighttime: beer, peanut butter cups, ham, puffs)

Saturday

Morning:

Woke up and gave Gabriel breakfast. Started cleaning the kitchen, dining room and sweeping the living room. Showered and my brother came over for a bit to pick up things they left on Christmas. We left to run errands.

(Morning: coffee, bread, water)

Afternoon:

We went to Verizon to drop off Javi's old phone. Then Costco to grab some items and lunch. Target to get the things to make the dessert for tomorrow and came home to continue cleaning out the closet for the boys. 

(Afternoon: hot dog, coke, pizza, water)

Nighttime:

Took Gabe to Walmart and came home. Had dinner and played games. Now relaxing.

(Nighttime: prime rib, potatoes, beer, water, puffs)

lazy day

Morning:

Woke up, used the bathroom and went back to sleep. Tired. Put away the table and chairs. Went back to sleep.

(Morning: water)

Afternoon:

Hung out and had lunch. Took a nap. Sorted out some cards. Picked up wingstop.

(Afternoon: prime rib, potatoes,  waterloo, water)

Nighttime:

Had dinner and tool a shower. Watched the last few episodes of Stranger things. Going to bed soon.

(Nighttime: tamales, wings, egg not, dessert, water)

Christmas

Morning:

Woke up and chilled. Set up and took a shower and helped with food prep before going to pick up some popcorn. 

(Morning: water. Croissant)

Afternoon:

The family came over, we ate and opened gifts. After cleaned up and fell asleep a bit.

(Afternoon: water, rompopi,  prime rib, potatoes, rice, mac and cheese. Desserts)

Nighttime:

Had some popcorn and a cookie. Watching stranger things and psych. 

(Nighttime: rum and coke, popcorn,  cookie)

Christmas eve (12/24/25)

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Logged in to work and answered some questions. On a break grabbed some Madelines and put the chairs and tables in the house for tomorrow. 

(Morning: water, coffee, Madeline)

Afternoon:

Had lunch, logged out of work and now on vacation. Came to rest a bit and played Madden. Got ready and we drove to Antioch to celebrate Christmas with out aunt, uncle and cousins.

(Afternoon: deli sandwich,  coke, potato salad)

Nighttime :

Had fun, played some games and won some. Lost some. Had good food and good conversation. Drove home in the rain, it went from Christmas eve to Christmas day on the drive back. Its raining and windy.  Going to bed soon.

(Nighttime: water, turkey, Gallo Pinto, potatoes, coffee, dessert)

high wind

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Logged in to work. Made some coffee and gave Gabriel breakfast. Offered Javi some food but he declined. He is not feeling well. Had a meeting in the morning and then went out to Cardenas and Target. 

(Morning: water. Coffee)

Afternoon:

Came home and had another meeting. Washed a lot of dishes and had lunch. Finished work and came out to wash more dishes and fold clothes. 

(Afternoon: Chicken Gnocchi soup,  water)

Nighttime:

Picked up Jack in the box, had dinner. Played cards with Gabriel. Did more laundry,  took a shower. Now watching tv until bed.

(Nighttime ; water, coke, waterloo, tacos, jumbo jack)

MNF

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Logged in to work. Had coffee and took the boys to the dentist and to Target to grab items to make lunch. Came back home to finish work.

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon: 

Made lunch, cleaned up the front yard, started getting the compost out. Finished work

 Had lunch and got ready for MNF Niners vs Colts.

(Afternoon: water, butter pasta,  spaghetti and meatballs, orange juice)

Nighttime:

The game started rough, but the Niners won. Had dinner and finished taking out trash. Took a shower and now watching psych.

(Nighttime: Bean and meat burritos, water. Beer)

hang out

Morning:

Woke up, showered and had coffee. Went with Gabriel to Sam's house.

(Morning: water. Coffee)

Afternoon:

Had fun watching the boys play and talking with Johnathan and MJ. Came home to finish watching the game and had some food.

(Afternoon: water. Lemonade, Chinese food)

Nighttime:

Drove around saw some Christmas lights. Came home and had the boys shower. Played cards with Gabriel and after went to shower.  Now watching Psych.

(Nighttime: water, Celsius)

Nutcracker

Morning:

Woke up and had breakfast. Started moving the couches around so we could build Javi's new bed frame. We did that and got rid of the old one. Did laundry as well.

(Morning: egg burrito, coffee, potatoes)

Afternoon:

Went to pick up some shrimp with Javi. Came home yo shower and went out to grab lunch. Ate and watched football for a bit and took a nap before driving down to watch my God Daughter in the Nutcracker. 

(Afternoon: fried rice, chow mein, BBQ pork, sesame chicken, coke, water)

Nighttime:

The show was good. Allix did a great job as a mouse. After we took pictures and came home. Had a snack and watched SNL. Going to bed soon.

(Nighttime: quesillo, water)

Last day of the week

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school and picked up Starbucks. Came home to log in to work and worked on a project. After I was logged in to answer questions. 

(Morning: water. Egg nog latte, senorita bread)

Afternoon:

Picked up the boys and went to Target. Came home and finished work. After work I had a late lunch.

(Afternoon: lasagna, water, garlic bread)

Nighttime:

Went to Michael's, Ross and Target and came home. Washed dishes and played speed and uno with the boys. Wrapped up some gifts and now relaxing. 

(Nighttime: gallo Pinto, beer, water)

half day

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Drove to BART and got on the train. Headed to the city, got to Civic Center and walked over to my desk. Set up.and reviewed several documents. 

(Morning: water, coffee, cookies. Toblerone)

Afternoon:

Walked to bart and caught the train. Hit up Target and came home to make lunch. Picked up the boys and finished work.

(Afternoon: Tacos, waterloo, water)

Nighttime:

Watched the game, watched a muppets Christmas carol and tool a shower. Cleaned up and now watching tv and relaxing. 

(Nighttime: bread. Celsius, water)

Holiday party

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Realized I forgot my coffee cup at work. Grabbed my things abd headed to BART. Caught the train and got to the city. It was raining and I didnt have my umbrella. Caught the 9 and got to work. Set up and went did the training. 

(Morning: water, Madeline)

Afternoon:

Walked to 1235 and went to the holiday lunch. Ate and walked back to 1440 to finish the training. Grabbed my things and caught the 9Rto get to BART and came home.

(Afternoon: pot luck, root beer, water)

Nighttime:

Had an early dinner. Went to Costco and came home. Put items away and washed dishes. Showered and now relaxing. 

(Nighttime: Bean soup. Water, Celsius)

Home

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school and came home. Made breakfast and logged in to work. Put some clothes to wash while I reviewed materials for tomorrow. Attended a DHCS call. Got ready to pick up lunch 

(Morning: water. Coffee. Oatmeal)

Afternoon:

Picked up pizza and came back to have lunch. Picked up the boys and came back to finish work. Took a nap after. 

(Afternoon: pizza, water)

Nighttime:

Played a card game with Gabriel. Took a shower,  watching tv and going to bed soon. Last day of training for the year for me tomorrow. 

(Nighttime: water)

Christmas program

Morning:

Woke up and went to change. Grabbed my things and headed out to work. Got to the city and walked over to 1440. We did the training and it went well in the morning. 

(Morning: water. Coffee. Celsius, Madeline)

Afternoon:

Had lunch and chilled. Finished the training.  Came home, on the way kept people from fighting on the bus. Caught the train home and tossed out garbage and compost.

(Afternoon: Sandwich, tacos, coke. Water)

Nighttime:

Went to the boys Christmas program. They did great. Came home to shower,  now watching Welcome to Derry 

(Nighttime: Tacos, water, Celsius)

Entry 14.... Heavy

 I am not doing well. There are a lot of things going on and I keep it inside because I really have no one to talk to that will not pass judgement. It's like, I am there for people if they need to talk and I listen, if they ask for advice, I give it or just sit there and let them vent. If it helps someone I'm willing to do it. I don't really feel that I have that support. When I start talking about things the people who I'm talking to start making it about themselves or start making comments that are not needed. Like I'm trying to talk it out and get it off my chest and no, I get stopped and it's frustrating and draining.

There are things that are happening with my family that I haven't shared with anyone because I understand that everyone has their own stuff going on and when I bring things up, a change of subject happens. The things that are happening are really tough and very heavy, they are very scary and sad. It stresses me out but I continue to show up where I'm needed because people need me, but so far no one is showing up for me.

I've mentioned this before, financially I am not doing well, I am not good with money, I try and try so hard to save and to be able to contribute, but life happens. I am thankful that my wife is much better financially than I am, but even with that it's stressful because I say that I can't do things and she assumes that I don't want to spend money, but it's not. I wish that money wasn't an issue, I would love to pay for anything and everything. I don't like to feel like a complete failure with money, I have put myself in this situation by not being much more forceful and saying no. I think I have gotten better with it and I'm really trying and I will continue to try to get out of this situation.

This all weighs heavy on me, it keeps me up at night, it makes me feel like less of a person and the way people react and comment it confirms to me that people view me as a loser. That hurts, I'm just trying to do what I can to provide and keep up. Hopefully things will get better for me, I'll try for sure to get out of it. It's all I can do. I'm sure that there will be a blow up soon and it will get heavier. 

Anyway, until next time

try out

Morning:

Woke up and took a shower. Changed and made some pancakes for the boys. Had breakfast a d we took off to castro valley for a try out event for Gabriel's travel ball team.

He did good, after i dropped him off to change, I went to the little league field and picked up some equipment that was going to be donated. Picked up the boys and headed to my sister's. 

(Morning: water, coffee, pancakes)

Afternoon:

Threw some trash out picked up my sister. Went to drop off the items at my nephews storage unit. We drove back to my sister's and watched the Niners game. They won and after we came home.

(Afternoon: water, waterloo, grilled cheese sandwich)

Nighttime:

Came home, dropped off some items. Went to Target and came home. Had dinner and showered. Got some items ready for tomorrow. Watchung a movie before bed.

(Nighttime: chilli dogs, chips, water, coke)

Birthday and last time (12/13/25)

Morning:

Woke up, showered. Got Gabriel ready for his game. We went to the gym and his team won. When we got home I cleaned up the leaves from the yard and side of the house.

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon:

Took a nap and did laundry. Drove to San Jose for Christmas in the park. 

(Afternoon: ravioli, peanut butter sandwich, water)

Nighttime:

Came back home, watched John Cena's last match. Had a drink in honor of my Dad's birthday and now going to bed.

(Nighttime: rum and coke, tortilla and egg. Water)

stressed out and no one knows it

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school. Picked up Starbucks and came home. Logged in to work and had a few chats and got some items ready for next week.

(Morning: Caramel Brule latte, water)

Afternoon:

Went to Target and Pacific Island market to grab some items. Came home and had lunch, picked up the boys. Had a meeting before ending work. After I played catch with Gabriel. 

(Afternoon: water. Coke, sushi bake, pork)

Nighttime:

Picked up Javi at his friends house. They were doing a project. Went to Southland Mall and shopped a bit. Came home and had dinner. Opened up some baseball cards. I got a Ken Griffey Jr card with some other cool ones. Watching tv until bed.

I'm not doing well this holiday season and actually all year, I am very bad with money. I try and try to save and pay things off but something always comes up. But I'll continue to try.

(Nighttime: popcorn,  sushi bake, waterloo, pastry. Beer)

Training begings

Morning:

Woke up.and changed. Grabbed my things and headed over to BART. Caught the train to the city, walked over to 1440 to set up for training. Did the training and it was good.

(Morning: water. Coffee,  Celsius)

Afternoon:

Had lunch and chilled. Finished training and headed to BART. Caught the train home. Ordered some pics from Walgreens and picked them up.

(Afternoon: Chicken sandwich,  water, waterloo, chocolate)

Nighttime:

Had dinner, played games and now watching tv

(Nighttime: water. Cranberry and vodka, Popeyes, popcorn)

holiday lunch

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Grabbed my things and headed out to BART. Caught the train in the cold and got to the office. I went to print out some items but the copier was in error mode so I fixed it. Attended and presented at a meeting amd got ready for our unit lunch. 

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon: 

We went to Sisteria in the city. I had a burger and potatoes with a Thai Iced tea. We had fun and celebrated out accomplishments this year. Got back to work and dropped my ear buds and they got run over. Reviewed some items and headed to BART to come home.

(Afternoon: burger, potatoes, Thai Iced tea, water)

Nighttime:

Got to Bayfair and went to pick up Gabe at practice. Came home and we went to gas up the truck. Went to Target and got some items and the last of the gifts. Had Gabriel shower, I washed dishes and took a shower. Now relaxing. Training starts tomorrow. 

(Nighttime: spaghetti and meatballs, pizza, beer. Water)

I wish things were different

Morning:

Woke up, changed. Headed to BART. Took the train, got to work and attended a meeting.

(Morning: water, coffee, gingerbread cookie)

Afternoon:

Had lunch, took a nap,  finished work. Headed to BART and came home. Cleaned up and washed dishes. Had an early dinner.

(Afternoon: water. Coke, tamales. Chicken sandwich,)

Nighttime:

Took Javi to practice. Came home, showered,  had a snack. Now relaxing. Waiting to her if my Mom and sister were able to see my brother. He had surgery to remove a kidney thay had a tumor. 

(Nighttime: ceral, water)

back to the office

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Drove to BART and caught the train to work. Logged in and had a meeting. Reviewed some items and had a chill Morning. 

(Morning: coffee. Water. Cookies)

Afternoon:

Had lunch and talked to my mom. It's her birthday today. Reviewed other items and came home. Drove here and put the bins out. Took out trash ad an early dinner.

(Afternoon: water. Arroz a la Valenciana, carne molida with white rice, tamales, coke, waterloo)

Nighttime:

Showered, washed some clothes. Got my things ready for tomorrow. Washed dishes and now watching tv until bed time.

(Nighttime: water)

bye week

Morning:

Woke up.and started watching football. The Niners are off this week. Made me a chicken omelet. 

(Morning: water, coffee, chicken omelet)

Afternoon:

Went to have lunch, to Costco and Macy's. Got Gabriel a jacket and Javi some shoes. Came home and played catch in the back and chilled.

(Afternoon: water. Drove. Pepper, burger, chips. Salad)

Nighttime:

Went to Target to grab a few last minute gifts. Packed them and showered. Played speed with Gabriel and had dinner. Now watching tv.

(Nighttime: Arroz a la Valenciana, beer. Water)

game day

Morning:

Woke up and took Javi to Target. Came home and cut my hair and shaved. Showered amd cut up some veggies for the food later. 

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon:

We tool Javi to his basketball game, his team won. He scored 2 points. After we came home to finish lunch and my mom, sister and brother in law came over, my brother came by later. We were going to celebrate my Mom's birthday. 

(Afternoon: water, arroz a la valenciana, cake, waterloo, fruit punch)

Nighttime:

Everyone left, we went to best buy, verizion, Walmart and Target. Came home and now relaxing before bed.

(Nighttime: water, beer)

Last day of training

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school. Picked up Starbucks and came home. Did the morning training and it was good. Aftee had a relaxing morning. 

(Morning: water, Caramel Brule latte)

Afternoon:

Had a burrito,  picked up the boys, had a meeting and finished work. Rested a bit before taking Javi to his school dance. After we went to Target to get some items for tomorrow. 

(Afternoon: water, waterloo, burrito)

Nighttime:

Picked Javi up from the dance. Looked at some baseball cards and and chilled. Game for Javi tomorrow. 

(Nighttime: cheesesticks, beer, water)

cold

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school and came home. Made coffee and got ready for training. Logged into work and did the training it went well. Just one more to go tomorrow and we wrap this up.

(Morning: water. Coffee)

Afternoon:

Picked up lunch,  attended a meeting, picked up the boys. Finished work and had Gabriel hit off the tee. Had Javi shoot some hoops and watched a bit of football.

(Afternoon: Panda Express,  water, waterloo)

Nighttime:

Had some nachos, played speed, took Javi to practice and came home. Showered and now relaxing. 

(Nighttime: nachos, water)

hump day

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Drove to Bayfair and caught the train to work. Set up my desk and had a meeting. 

(Morning: coffee, Madeline, water)

Afternoon:

Had lunch, helped decorate the hallway and reviewed some items. Grabbed my things ans headed to Civic Center and caught the train home. When I got to the car I drove to pick up Gabriel at practice. 

(Afternoon: spaghetti and meatballs, waterloo, watwr)

Nighttime:

Had dinner, went to the Nike outlet and came home. Washed dishes,  showered and now relaxing until bedtime. 

(Nighttime: Chicken Gnocchi soup,  water)

another day

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school and came home. Logged in to work and prepared for training. 

(Morning: water, coffee)

Afternoon:

Made lunch, played Madden, took a nap. Did the training and it was good. After work I practiced baseball with the boys outside. Went to Target and came home.

(Afternoon: water. Waterloo, spaghetti and meatballs)

Nighttime:

Took Javi to practice and came home. Had him shower,  I put some items in the truck and showered after. Finished folding laundry. Watching tv before bed.

(Nighttime: water, beer, cereal, bread)

1st of the month

Morning:

Woke up and changed. Took the boys to school and picked up breakfast. Came home and logged into work. Had a meeting in the morning and got ready for Afternoon training.

(Morning: water. Coffee, McDonald's breakfast)

Afternoon:

Had lunch and took a quick nap. Logged in and did the training. It went well. After had another meeting and logged off. Watched some on RAW before taking a nap. 

(Afternoon: water. Waterloo, hibachi rice and chicken)

Nighttime:

Finished wrestling and took a shower. Had some cereal and now watching tv.

(Nighttime: cereal, water)