Drowning... Entry 3

 There is a saying, when it rains.. it pours... and let me tell you right now I am in one of the worst storms of my life and I'm struggling to find a way to get out or at least to tread the waters. I have never been good with money, the more I try and save, it seems that something happens and it makes it hard for me to save anything in case of an issue. This year has been no different. I had saved money in anticipating of our taxes bill being high, but what came next, well, it's not good for me.

I get paid well, but there are bills to pay, mortgage, private school, all the things we have to pay in order to have a good life and be comfortable. Then the car trouble began. The alternator needed to be replaced on our truck, the brakes need to be changed, the door handle broke and needed replacement and now it looks like the transmission is actin gup. All these things cost money and that is stressing me out. 

I budget well for the two weeks in between my checks, but with these costs and now learning that we might have to get a new car, that budgeting goes out the window. I really hope that the cost to repair what is going on is not too high, but knowing how my luck is, it will be a costly repair. My wife tells me not to worry about it and that we will find a way to get through it. I know we will, she is great at figuring things out, but I still stress and struggle with it. 

There are events coming up that will costs us as well, I'll have to figure on how to pay for those, it's just very stressful when everything is going up in prices and the pay remains the same. I need some sunshine to shine on me so I can have some good sunny days. My birthday is around the corner and I really don't want to do anything that will cost us money, my wife thinks I'm dramatic, but I'm just trying to save whatever we can so we can pay what we need to do. 

A good things is that I'm not depressed, or at least I don't think I am. Stressed, yes, for sure I'm stressed, but I try to reaming even so no one knows. I don't really talk to anyone about it, everyone has their own stuff to deal with. The one thing that I know is that we will get by, we'll find a way, but until then, I hope I don't drown even further.

Until next time.. hopefully with some good news