Wednesday, April 30, 2025
Game day
Drowning... Entry 3
There is a saying, when it rains.. it pours... and let me tell you right now I am in one of the worst storms of my life and I'm struggling to find a way to get out or at least to tread the waters. I have never been good with money, the more I try and save, it seems that something happens and it makes it hard for me to save anything in case of an issue. This year has been no different. I had saved money in anticipating of our taxes bill being high, but what came next, well, it's not good for me.
I get paid well, but there are bills to pay, mortgage, private school, all the things we have to pay in order to have a good life and be comfortable. Then the car trouble began. The alternator needed to be replaced on our truck, the brakes need to be changed, the door handle broke and needed replacement and now it looks like the transmission is actin gup. All these things cost money and that is stressing me out.
I budget well for the two weeks in between my checks, but with these costs and now learning that we might have to get a new car, that budgeting goes out the window. I really hope that the cost to repair what is going on is not too high, but knowing how my luck is, it will be a costly repair. My wife tells me not to worry about it and that we will find a way to get through it. I know we will, she is great at figuring things out, but I still stress and struggle with it.
There are events coming up that will costs us as well, I'll have to figure on how to pay for those, it's just very stressful when everything is going up in prices and the pay remains the same. I need some sunshine to shine on me so I can have some good sunny days. My birthday is around the corner and I really don't want to do anything that will cost us money, my wife thinks I'm dramatic, but I'm just trying to save whatever we can so we can pay what we need to do.
A good things is that I'm not depressed, or at least I don't think I am. Stressed, yes, for sure I'm stressed, but I try to reaming even so no one knows. I don't really talk to anyone about it, everyone has their own stuff to deal with. The one thing that I know is that we will get by, we'll find a way, but until then, I hope I don't drown even further.
Until next time.. hopefully with some good news
Tuesday, April 29, 2025
it was not a good day
Monday, April 28, 2025
Game day
Sunday, April 27, 2025
Sinners
Saturday, April 26, 2025
taking the L
Friday, April 25, 2025
Back home
Thursday, April 24, 2025
Wolf lodge
Wednesday, April 23, 2025
game day
Tuesday, April 22, 2025
in office
Monday, April 21, 2025
Gane day
Sunday, April 20, 2025
WrestleMania night 2
Saturday, April 19, 2025
WrestleMania night 1
Friday, April 18, 2025
Friday
Thursday, April 17, 2025
Denied
Wednesday, April 16, 2025
Don't let the umpire call strike 3...
Tuesday, April 15, 2025
Another day
Monday, April 14, 2025
Game day
Time is running out... Entry 2
I was standing in my spot as the third base coach for my youngest sons team for Little League while my youngest was batting. He had two strikes on him and he launched one into right field and he took off running, he hesitated a bit since the umpire didn't call it fair or foul right away, but he heard me yell run and he took off. He was close to third base when the right fielder got the ball to throw it to the pitcher, so I sent him home for another inside the park homerun for him as his teammates and parents were cheering him on.
How did I feel at that moment? I was very happy for him and proud that he got a big hit off a kid, not being afraid and waiting for coach pitching. I also got a bit sad, as I saw the number 10 moving on the back on his uniform as he pumped his arms back and forth on his way to touch the plate, it hit me that this will all before over soon. I mean I have a few more years where I can help out with him and his team in the capacity, but one day I'll have to be in the stands, no longer on the field and no longer in the dugout.
The same thing that happened with my older son, I helped coach his teams for a few years before I transitioned to helping my younger son. The feeling remained, I was very sad to have to not be on the staff with my older son, but I knew that I had to move on so he could grow and he has.
My older son has become a very solid baseball player. He can play all positions, his best ones are 1st base and catcher. Thinking back on how he was when he started his journey into this great game and to seeing how he is now is nothing short of amazing. I wish that he could see what I see and feel how proud I am of him and how much I enjoy watching him play. He is a very smart ball player and is understanding a lot more. You should see him gun out would be base runners and how consistent he is at the plate.
My younger son is also a very good player, he plays all the positions, his bests are Third base, Short stop and Pitcher. He is a bit fearless, he tells me that he is not afraid to hit with 2 strikes and he just knows he is the closer for his team. He is catching really well too, I have no doubt that when we move up divisions that he will follow in his big brothers footsteps and he will gun those would be base runners out as well. His hitting is off the charts right now, he has about 5 inside the park home runs and is very consistent with hitting off of the kids who pitch, no waiting around for coach pitching.
I know I have a few more years with him in the dugout and I will enjoy them and enjoy helping not only him but his teammates. I will try to push those thoughts of the end nearing away and enjoy the ride as we go on it. But I am grateful of the time that I have had and will continue to have on the field with my boys, it will be over one day, but not anytime soon, so let's continue to play ball.
Sunday, April 13, 2025
swim day
Saturday, April 12, 2025
Game day
Friday, April 11, 2025
Friday
Thursday, April 10, 2025
At home
Wednesday, April 9, 2025
Game day
Confidence Entry 1
It's been a few days since I decided to start a new series. I still haven't been able to think of anything to write about. I have started and stopped several time. When I think I have a good topic, I start and then think, why would anyone care about this? It's frustrating for sure. I want to get something out there, I want to write something down. But I just can't, not sure why.
Thinking about it more it might stem from a lack of confidence in myself, doubting if what I have to say is worth it, wondering if my writing will be good. I'm scared of not being enough. Some might find it odd that I feel this way because when I coach kids or talk to others I'm almost always trying to build confidence and coach them to be confident, but at times I don't feel that way myself.
We all play different roles in life and we all try our best to be who we think we can be, or who we think people need us to be. I often tell people that wrestling is really why I am the way I am. What I mean by that is that wrestling has taught me that they are characters that come to life when the light turns on. So in my work and coaching activities I become that character that is me, where I really want to be on a confidence level, but when that light turns off, I'm back to taking a back seat and I am happy with that.
I never have liked to be the center of attention. Although a lot of people will tell you otherwise. I think the main reason is that when things go wrong, I step up to lead or help with what ever needs to be done. I don't really like doing that, but it's something that just happens and I'm ok with that. I think that one of the big reasons that I think that way is my job.
Where I work, it's not for the weak. If you are looking for genuine recognition for anything, my job is not the place for you. However, they pay well and I do my job very well. I have been here for over 13 years and there has not been any real appreciation for what I do from management and some other higher positions. I do feel appreciated by the people I assists, be it the clients I used to help or from the people that I help train. I have built a few good friendships here and that does help with the lack of appreciation from others. When we train, I do for others what I wish was done for me, I thank them for all they do, remind them that we wouldn't be here without them and that they are doing the best they can and they are awesome. Some believe me, some don't. I say it because I mean it, I really do and that's all I have to say about that.
Well, I guess I got something down here, not sure if it makes sense or if it's just ramblings of an insecure man. Either way, I'm sure it will get better, I hope you enjoyed what I wrote.
Thank you for joining me here today... See you next time
Tuesday, April 8, 2025
Another day
Game/Training day (4/7/25)
Morning:
Woke up and didn't really feel well. I got changed and headed over to work. My BART ride this morning was a little longer as I am going to get off on 16th street. I got to the city and walked over to the training room at the HR building. Waited for someone to unlock the door and I started set up. We began training and everything went pretty well.
(Morning: Chocolate, water, coffee)
Afternoon:
Had lunch and talked to my Mom for a bit. Began training again and when we were done I took off to BART to head home to get Gabriel and go to Javi's game. They ended up losing 11-1, Javi reached on a dropped 3rd strike, stole a base and scored a run. He threw out 2 base runners.
(Afternoon: Leftovers, nachos, gatorade, water)
Nighttime:
got the boys home, had them do homework and change. Chilled and went to bed.
(Nighttime: Water)
Monday, April 7, 2025
New series
I have often thought about writing something, but I have always held back because I did not know what to write about and I also did not know if anyone would be interested in what I had to say. But after seeing how pretty much everyone out there thinks they are an 'influencer', I decided to give it a shot. First let me start by saying that I do not consider myself an 'influencer' and I do not think that my opinions carry more weight than others. What I do know is that I do have lot to say and it helps me to write it down so maybe someone who feels the same way or is struggling with something can read it and see that there are others out there that they can vibe with.
When I created this blog I did it just to have an outlet to just write something and say something. If anyone read it, great. If not, that was fine as well. Somewhere along the line I started to write a sort of daily journal as a look into my everyday life. Some days are a lot, a lot of days are a little, most days are almost a repeat of the previous day. I like having a routine, I like knowing what is next, but I also like to have a day full of unknowns and just have fun.
So I guess here right now as I write this, I am going to commit to a new series, I don't know how often I will write or share. What I do know is that when I do, I will be thoughtful and try to be as genuine and truthful as I can be. I will try to bring you on a journey into my world, writing about things that I know about, I might write about things I don't know about. I'll just write and hopefully you will enjoy it.
Today is April 7, 2025, I think I can commit to writing something by the end of this week as the first topic and see where we go from there.