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Sometimes I do feel like just giving up and saying f*ck It! Let things be how they are. People get rewarded for wearing fake masks and pretending to be what they want you to see. I have never been one to kiss ass to get ahead. I have always tried to do what I want to do and decline when there are things that I don't want to do.
I know it's hard for some people to imagine, I know it's hard for people not to play the game and be like everyone else. But that is where I am different. I recognize the effort that people put in to what they are doing, I recognize that the best way for someone to appreciate what you do for them, is to show them that you appreciate what they do, not only for you, but for the process.
At the end of the day people want public recognition,  they strive for it, the crave it. I really don't care about it. I know what I do, why I do what I do and that is enough for me. I don't care about being thanked by people who weren't there, I appreciate the thanks that I get from the people that I shared the experience with.
I try to remind people to know their worth and to take charge and take credit for what they do. Not to let others take credit for their accomplishments. I try to stand up for what is right, I try to be who I am at all times. I don't have time to play games, but if that is what others like to do, then more power to them.
It may take me a bit longer to get where I want to be, but at least at the end of the day I will get there without compromising my integrity and who I am. That is something that I hope I can pass on to my kids. I really hope that one day they will see that it is a whole heck of a lot easier to face that man in the mirror when you do things the right way. That is why I refuse to change who I am. I just continue to be me and I will see you on the other side.

Straight up now tell me

Morning:
Gabriel had a much better night. I think one more day at home will be best and back to day care tomorrow. At night I was not able to get a good rest, I was thinking about the possibility of being offered the position of the 2913 program specialist for the appeals unit, on one hand it's a great opportunity because it's moving up and onward, but on the other hand the time off is limited. They mentioned it, Rudy mentioned it and when I talked to my wife she kind of seemed a little disappointed at that. Thinking about it, I would rather have the flexibility to take time off as opposed to missing out on key moments with my wife and kids. I will probably talk to my wife about it later and see what works best for our family.
Right now I am in the car, waiting to go into work. I have OT today.
The day started off well. I took Judy to get a cup of coffee for her passing probation and becoming a permanent employee. I did my tasks and waited for lunch.

Afternoon:
Ate lunch, went back to my desk for the phones for an hour. Right now I am waiting to go in for Javi's parent/teacher conference. Hopefully it goes well. After I'm getting him some food and going home.
Conferencewent great. Overall Javi is an advance student. Needs to listen more carefully to instructions, but his teacher said she was one of her best students. So that for sure is a positive. After the conference I hit up the dollar tree for some St. Patrick day hats and bracelets for Javi, went to McDonald's for haopy meals and over to Safeway for some ground beef.
I got home and my 3 packages were waiting for me. 2 from WWE and 1 from Lids.

Nighttime:
I started cooking some of my Mac, Cheese and Ground Beef special. It was really good. Taking some to work tomorrow for lunch. Right now I have Gabriel with me, going to try and put him in his crib. Hopefully he sleeps there. Well, that didn't work out. However, my wife was able to get him to sleep on our bed for a long time. About to watch some tv and head to bed. Hopefully tomorrow Gabriel is doing better so I can meet them at my sister's house.

Fool hearted memory

Morning:
Gabriel had a better night. I have to say that my wife was the real MVP of the night. I tried sleeping with Gabriel but I guess my snoring woke him up. I got up and got ready for work. In had OT today so I was in at 7. Worked up until about 9:40 and went to my interview. I think it went well. Let's see what happens. I got back to work, finished up some tasks and waited for lunch.

Afternoon:
Had lunch with Amilcar and took a walk after. I was on the phones in the afternoon,l so I had to be back at 1. I took 21 calls today. Some were ok, some were nice. I was also helping some of the folks I mentored. Went home, bathed Gabriel and now grabbing some food.

Nighttime:
Got home and fed Gabriel. I had a bit of a headache due to not eating since lunch and I started feeling nauseated. I was finally able to eat. Felt a little better. Found out that my mom was having some issues that may require some heawring aids and other medical devices. It's very scary to hear and the financial burden is a a lot to think about. But it has to be done. We will figure out a way to help and alleviate some of the burden.
Did some laundry, watched Raw and now it's bed time

Sunday vibes

Morning:
Holy he'll what a bad night. Gabriel is sick and he had a stuffy nose and he was being a real brat about it. Kept us up a majority of the night. My wife was frustrated and she was taking some of it out on me during the night time. She was able to finally put him down and around 6:30 or so, she have me Gabriel. I brought him out to the living room, hung out. I gave him some cereal and his Abuela gave him his bottle while I made Javi some pancakes and I had coffee.
When my wife woke up, I started taking out the rug and cleaning the windows and started a bit of the floors. My mother in law cleaned a portion of the floor, after my wife helped me move the coughs and put the rug in the living room.

Afternoon:
My back was hurting due to the moving around the couches. I took a quick nap, woke up and ordered Chinese food. We ate, hung out and put Gabriel down for a bit. After he woke up we went to Target for some groceries.

Nighttime:
Watched The Walking Dead and tried to put Gabriel down, but he was not having it. He wanted to be with his mama. Right now I am watching an episode of Psych before going to bed, but day tomorrow with my interview. Hopefully Gabriel will have a good night and we can get some rest.

It's the freakin' weekend

Morning:
Got up, changed a poopy diaper and went back to sleep. Woke up around 8, but got out of bed around 8:20. Cleaned the bed, took a shower, washed dishes, ate breakfast and got Javi ready for his last swimming class. He missed the last 2, 1 because he was in LA, the other because my wife, mother in law and he didn't want to go because it was cold. He is doing better than he was before, he can swim a bit, but he still gets scared. Going to get gas after here and go home.

Afternoon:
Javi did great at swim class. We got ready, saw a possible rental and headed to Hillsdale for a forced shopping trip. Since I have the interview on Monday, my wife is insisting in me buying new clothes and shoes for the interview. We got to the mall and they quickly realized that there was no option for food court food anymore. We ate a a restaurant that was outside and um, yeah. Wish they had a food court.
After we went to Macy's and looked for some clothes. I got 2 shoes, slacks and 2 dress shirts.
We home and I tried the clothes on and just as I suspected, I looked damn good. Actually, I looked great. The shoes were a great buy. I picked out my outfit for the interview. Hopefully it all goes well.

Nighttime:
We were watching some tv, I kinda dosed off. We got up, fed the baby, my wife gave Gabriel a bath and I talked to my mom and dad on the phone. Right now just fed Gabriel again and he is sleeping, waiting another few minutes before putting him in the crib. I am going to try and watch a movie on Netflix later on before bed.

It's Friday

Morning:
Got up around 5:40, washed bottles, put clothes to dry and got ready to go look for parking at work. Found parking around 6:20 and was listening to a podcast and took a nap. Woke up around 7:40 to start heading out to walk to work. The morning was good. Got 4 of my tasks done before I went out to get my coffee upstairs. After I came back down and finished my last 2 tasks.
Around 11:30 I went for a walk and then to Costco to get some formula, windshield wipers and a slice of cheese pizza.

Afternoon:
Decided to try something different today and eat in the 2nd floor break room, probably will be the last time doing so. Too many people, I just want to chill out. After lunch I was on phone function, I got 19 calls today. The director came by to try and explain why they omitted my name from the tank you portion, but like u said before I really don't care and have moved on. I have heard from people that some have spoken up in their unit meetings and are being vocal about the injustice they did. So in the end, that is all the thanks I need, that my peers have noticed and stood up for me. Unlike some supervisors who decided to stay quiet. Any way, onward and upward.

Nighttime:
My Mom, sister and goddaughter came over to watch the boys while we went out for a birthday dinner. They decided to have Olga's dinner in San Mateo at Three Restaurant.  Food was good, conversation was good, ride back home was good. Now getting ready to decompress and go to bed. Long day tomorrow.

Wake up it's the 1st of the month

Morning:
It's March 1st, you know what that means... My leave is over, I have to return to work. I got up, got ready, washed the bottles. I made my coffee and went on my way. It's raining now so I had to be careful on the drive over. I found good parking and now I am waiting to go to HR to get cleared.
I hope today goes well, I am a bit sad as I won't be with the boys as much as I have been. But I sure did enjoy the 2 months off I had with them.
Got to the HR building and it was raining a bit, after filling out some paperwork I got cleared to come back to work. On the walk over it was raining hard, my umbrella broke so I only had my jacket to shield me from the rain.
I made it to work, checked in with my supervisor and went for. To clear up my desk. I was shown something that really irked me, they gave credit to only one person (the wrong person) for the work that I did with the last cohort. It is what it is, just plain BS. So, now if I do get another position in another building it will just be that easier for me to leave as they just shown they don't appreciate what I do.

Afternoon:
Still here at work. About to head out to a meeting. Going to see if there were any changes to policies or procedures. Went to the meeting, nothing much has changed here, now I get to ride the rest of the day free. Tomorrow is when the real work begins.

Nighttime:
I was going to pick up my wife and Gabriel to head over to my sister's house,  but she called me and told me Gabriel was sad and had a fever. I guess today was a bit much for him, he started day care and I was not with him for the day. I took a detour and went to pick up Javi and came home. Gabriel was happy to see me. I missed them both today, I got used to hanging out with them.
He was a bit fussy, but eventually I got him down. Going to shower and watch some tv. Last day of work tomorrow before the weekend, next week there is OT, going to take it as comp time so I can build my PTO.